Monday, 23 February 2009
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hence my datingsh name.
They were just sweet nothings. They always are. My best friend broke up with his girlfriend, for the millionth time. Last time this happened he confessed he had feelings for me, and we almost dated. Every time I talk to him, the first thing he says to me is "I'm still single." I just smile, and say "Good for you." I honestly just think he's trying to see how long it is before he dates her again, because he keeps going back to her. So I think he just wants me to be proud of him. But on the other hand, he keeps obsessively saying "I love you" to me. And, we're best friends so I always tell him I love him, and he always tells me he loves me, and we haven't ever meant "I'm in love with you." But he's been going a little overboard. I mean, I'm not complaining, I love it personally. I like feeling needed, loved, and wanted, but it's making me question his intentions.
Along with that, he's been up'ing his sweet talking. Normally we have joking pet names for each other, that we use when we're saying goodnight, or hello, or if he's trying to get my attention. For example, if I'm totally spacing out, he'll say "Hey, hello... Hey beautiful." and then I'll know he's actually talking to me, so I'll turn and start paying attention to him again. But lately it's been extremely often. I texted him "Goodnight cutie <3" last night like I normally do, and my text back said "Goodnight sweetheart, I love you baby <33333" Not normal.
I'm looking too much into this, I can feel it. But these are all things he normally does when he's crushing... and this is what happened last time too.
Hm. I don't know.
I'm just going to wait and see,
that's all I can really do.
But honestly, and this is completely dead-serious, I think I'm getting over him.. and it's about damn time. I don't even get those butterflies anymore when he calls, I don't get crazily upset when we get in fake arguements, I mean, I still get those dang chills when we hold hands, or he kisses me... but like, besides that... none. and when I say kisses me, I don't mean on the lips... I just mean like friend kisses. Yeah, okay, I might be exaggerating a bit, because I do get crazy butterflies whenever he does one some of those cute things, like when he surprises me with presents, or sends me a cute text, or gives me kisses, or spins me around in circles. Damn it.... I'm not over it, I just don't get nervous when he calls anymore, I think that's about it. Cause I still get butterflies in everything else. Oh well, I think he's looking for a new girlfriend. Him and his guy-best friend were out patrolling today. They're goofs. I don't know what to think. I'll update when something changes.
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I know the mixed signals thing. It's frustrating & confusing! I was in almost the same situation you could say. Me & my friend whom I've known for longer than a year & completely trust have been through a lot. We have names for each other, we used to talk a lot on the phone/MSN, have webcam conversations, wanted to see each other & spend time together whenever we could. I also loved how he used to do sweet things, surprise me, txt me (all of that which he often did), how he couldn't stay away from me for like a day & yes, the chills. The thing is, we have gone further. We have kissed...on the mouth & fooled around a bit. Friends & family also used 2 think we were dating & soo into each other (although not all of them knew we kissed & stuff). They were so sure we would start a relationship together. I used to mean so much to him, but now things are off. Mostly with him. Eversince I made this big deal about him hanging out with his ex gf. Now I feel there's nothing left to do than just be away from him cuz it's getting hard for me. He doesn't see what all of this pretending is doing to me. He's so oblivious or ignorant. I honestly don't know, so I do my own stuff & see how far it'll go. I honestly feel like this helps...being away from him so I can sort out my feelings & maybe even learn to let go (although I know it won't completely), but it's the best thing to do.
It seems like your friend knows he can depend on u & he also seems to crush on girls a lot. Maybe he's not in search of something serious & wants to fool around now. Have you actually told him that u have feelings for him? So yea, what was his reaction?