Friday, 27 February 2009

  • good news!

    First I'd like to say sorry for not answering any comments or messages lately. I've been super busy, but I will tomorrow. I'm going to go to bed after I write this blog, ha.

    Everything's fine between me and my best friend. It all had to go downhill first, though, of course. Two days ago, after me and my best friend got in a fight, my day got even worse. Some bad news came to me about one of my childhood friends and I spent the whole day crying. I didn't want to talk to any of my good friends and I didn't want to talk to my family... I just wanted to talk to my best friend, because he's the only one, without a doubt, who can put that smile on my face. Anyways, I spent the majority of the day watching movies in my room, sad ones, of course, and gorging myself on chocolatey delights while I cried. At around 10 at night I started getting ticked off. I had only gotten one text message from my best friend all day long and it was him asking if I was going to talk to him at all that day after he had hung up at me that morning. I told him I wasn't mad at him anymore, and that I was having a bad day, so I didn't really care about our fight. After those text messages we didn't talk for the better part of the day, and I was getting selfishly upset. I know now that it was a self-centered act that I was getting mad at him for not calling, but I was shocked with the bad news that I had received earlier, and at the time it seemed right to be angry with him.

    Finally, at around 11 at night, he called me. When I picked up the phone the first thing he said was "Do you need me to come over there? Are you okay? What happened? Why are you crying?" (I never cry in front of him, ever, and this is his first experience with dealing with me crying, so he definitely went to all extremes). He ended up talking me to sleep til 2 in the morning, he did his job and put the smile back on my face, told me all about his new-found love and how great his day had been with her, and refused to go to bed until I stopped crying. He told me that he would probably see me less because this girlfriend required more of his time, and she didn't live near me like his previous one did, so he wouldn't even be near me when he hung out with her. He told me all this in such a caring way, and at first I just didn't say anything. I didn't expect him to take me into consideration when he went into a new relationship... I didn't expect it at all, but he told me how he'd been thinking about it so much that day, and that he didn't know what to do. I pretty much sat there speechless on the phone listening to him try to figure out ways to still spend time with me. I finally just told him to shut up. I said it'd suck, but our friendship was strong, and it didn't matter. We don't really see each other much as it is, so I told him not to even let it worry him anymore. We'd deal. He started to tell me some more stuff about how our friendship would probably weaken, but I was already upset about losing one friend that day, so I started crying at the thought of losing another. So he just shut up, and asked me if my dad would be mad if he drove over to see me. We talked til the early hours of the morning, until I assured him that he could go to bed, and promised I wouldn't cry for the rest of the night.

    The next morning he woke me up, and we talked til he had to leave for an appointment. Then later that night his guy-best friend called me and asked me out while they were together. No, we're not dating, but he said he wanted to win me over, and therefore I'll be spending a lot of time with him. He told me he really wanted to bring me on double dates with my best friend and my best friends (soon-to-be) girlfriend. I agreed to it, and so I think everything will work out in the end. I'm actually going to give this guy a chance, and hope things work out for the best. He's my best friend's other best friend, so he must be a good guy... right? Ha, we'll see.

    As to the "other" guy in my life, I don't think things are going to work out. We're having a major communication problem right now, to the point that we haven't talked all week. Normally when I don't talk to a love-interest for a significant amount of time, I start missing them.. you know? But the fact that I don't care at all that I haven't spoken to him for over 7 days, it just makes me question my feelings for him... Hm... we'll see.

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